Me and my skin.

This post has been inspired by a video I stumbled across on Youtube by My Pale Skin (link to video) and it really got me thinking about the journey I've been on with my skin. 

My skin is something I've always had a love-hate relationship with. One day it'll be smooth, matte and look amazing, the next I can be an utter grease ball and have flaky skin. I've always felt self conscious of my skin as I'm quite freckly on my arms and face and have been on a never ending battle to find a foundation which covers the freckles on my face. 

After looking through some old photos not so long ago, I realised how different my skin is now to when I was a teenager. I stumbled across a photo of myself I took when I was around 17, now to look at this you'd think okay..your skin isn't that bad, but trust me, under that foundation I was hiding a multitude of marks. When I look back at this photo, I realise how self conscious I was as a teenager, and how much this has effected me right up until this day. And I now realise how much it shouldn't have done. 

Throughout my teenage years, I went from pillar to post with my acne. One day I'd feel confident enough to go out without foundation on as my skin had cleared a little more, other days I would sit and re-do my foundation 2-3 times before I even left the house because I didn't think it looked right. I frequently wore long sleeved tops to cover my arms or wore 3/4 sleeves because I hated how my freckles looked, despite people telling me that they're nothing to be ashamed of and that actually they're a sign of "beauty". I also remember at one point, I wanted to give up because nothing I used or wore made me feel any better.

Fast forward 5 years and I'm now in my early 20's (22 to be exact!) and it's a completely different story. 

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not fully there yet. I still have the odd breakout, my skin is still very much so going through phases of being greasy, dry, freckly, spotty. I also have a lot more red pigmentation in my skin now then I did back then. But I now know how to manage it better. It's amazing after 5 years how much different I feel. I go out a lot more often without makeup on now, and if anything my freckles are more noticeable now than they were back then. My face no longer bothers me, if I get a spot I think hey, it'll go, it might leave a scar but I now know how to tackle it, should I need to. 

Another thing I've always worried about throughout my teenage years and into my 20's is stretch marks. The skin on the rest of my body is very very fair, so any little mark stands out like a sore thumb. I've always had stretch marks on the sides of my boobs and the very tops of my thighs, but I've always worried about getting stretch marks on any other part of my body. My stomach mainly, as I've always been extremely self conscious of this area and if anything, I've done everything in my power to stop getting stretch marks and it's worked.

However, all of this changed when I had my appendix out last August. 

This is the first photo I've taken of my stomach since last year (apart from the day after I had my appendix out to show my sister my scars) and it honestly makes me feel so sad looking at this. 

Before anyone asks, I haven't lost a substantial amount of weight, nor have I put it on. This all started appearing around 2 months after having my appendix out. I don't have any words to describe what it feels like for me to look at this photo, and to post it on the internet. I remember showing someone these because I didn't know what products to use to make them fade and the words uttered out of their mouth have stayed with me since. "You look as if you've had a baby, or you might as well have done with those". 

To me, this has knocked me back so much. As I said previously, I'm really not bothered by my face any more but this? This gets me down every single day and I don't know what to do about it. They're deep, they're red, they're itchy and they're sore. I hated my stomach to begin with and this just tops it off really. 

I know stretch marks fade with time and a lot of you might be thinking "well how many people actually see your stomach..." but that's not the point. I know they're there and I don't know when they'll go. 

Having my appendix out has really left a mental scar for me, one that I'd rather forget. These stretch marks are a daily reminder for me of what I went through, how scared I was and how helpless I felt. The doctors told me that I'd only have a tiny scar on my stomach, which is actually slap bang in the middle of that huge stretch mark on the left side of my stomach. Now I'm left with these. Yes it upsets me and in fact it's upset me writing this post, but I need to get to grips with having them and learn how to love them, because they're here to stay. 

This post is to just remind myself that although I may not have the perfect skin, I just need to be a little bit more grateful for the skin that I do have. 

Do you have any skin imperfections, if so what are they and how do you deal with them?

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MeLuna menstrual cup review.

I thought I'd do something a little different for this post. If you have been reading my blog for a few months, you'll remember that I created a post about different types of menstrual products available, other than regular towels and tampons. (Click here to read)

Let me start off my saying if periods or period products freak you out, you might just want to go ahead and click that back button. I'm going to get right into the nitty gritty of this stuff! 

After becoming more aware of the products available in the "RUMP" market, I decided hey, what the hell, lets give them a go. I purchased my first ever cloth pad and menstrual cup from Feminine Wear (link) and couldn't wait to receive my package. It arrived around 3 days after ordering, which is extremely fast service and the lady who sent my package was an absolute delight to speak to. 

I ordered a small MeLuna and also a pantyliner pad as I never really tend to have heavy periods (if anything they're always like spotting!) and low and behold, my period started literally the day after receiving the products - talk about timing! I was so excited (I don't know if that's the right word..) to try these products out, so firstly, I had a good read through all of the information I'd received with my menstrual cup. (I'll do a separate post on the pad, as I also plan on getting more!)

Im not sure if you can read the information on the leaflet, but these are actually really helpful to have at hand if needs be. The first foldout leaflet is basically giving you information on why cups are beneficial, how to insert and remove your cup, different types of folds and also how to clean and maintain after using. Also, the bright yellow sticker is Feminine Wear's contact details, but the website is already bookmarked for future purchases!

The second little card that I received is a period calendar, something I've never really thought about doing before if I'm being honest! The front side of the card has a couple of illustrations on different folds, the back being the calendar. 

So, what does this cup look like, you may be asking? 

Yes, this is my actual menstrual cup. That's been inside me (...oh.) with menstrual blood inside it. As you can see...it hasn't stained at all, which is something I was really worried about (hence getting purple, darker colour means less staining right?!).

The first thing I want to say is the first time you try these out, don't be discouraged if it doesn't open fully the first time or it doesn't feel right, it took me a couple of attempts to get the rim to open fully and to sit right. However when I did, it felt like nothing was there at all. Luckily, I'd managed to get it to fit right without any leakages for my first period, which is something I was really happy about.

 Now let's compare how I feel using this, with how I felt using tampons. I've used tampons on and off since I was about 17 and have always found them to be so uncomfortable in a number of ways. They always leave me feeling a little "dry" down there once I've taken them out, something I've never really gotten used to over time. Also, I'm constantly aware that I have a tampon in, the string dangling down and also the feeling of the tampon inside of me. Now before you even say "well it probably wasn't in right then"...they have been, I've been using them for years so I think I know how to put a tampon in! However, my first period using my menstrual cup was the most comfortable I've ever had, purely for the fact I knew I didn't have to worry about changing/emptying this as often as I would do with a tampon. 

The one thing that did worry me is the capacity - I've never really been able to judge just how much menstrual fluid I lose. I know it's not something you really think about, but I've always been curious to see. This little thing didn't feel like it'd be enough (even for spotting!) but my god - was I wrong. I'd say the first and second days are the heaviest of my "period" - I use that term lightly as I said previously, they only tend to be like heavy spotting not actual period flow - but when I came to change this after a full day at work, I had barely even filled the cup. You could argue that it wasn't a heavy day, you could argue that I could have started then stopped my period but when I have bad cramping, I know it'll be a heavy period (which I had at the start of this!). 

I'm not going to pretend like this doesn't come without it's flaws  - it's very weird to get used to at first and yes, it does take a bit of practice inserting, and removing for that matter. Loosening the suction in order to remove the cup is one of the strangest sensations I've ever experienced, as was removing the cup and disposing of my "fluid". Actually no, disposing wasn't that bad as you literally tip it down the toilet, there's no trying to fit it back in packaging or wrapping it up in toilet paper like there is with a tampon! However, I do feel like if you were out and about, doing this in public toilets could be a little more difficult, unless you either use a disabled toilet (if you have access) with a sink in it, or you have a bottle of water to rinse the cup out with before reinserting. I have read that you can wipe it over with toilet paper but I'm really not keen on that in case it leaves fibres on the cup!

My honest opinion? I actually really like this. I never thought I'd say it. It's definitely something I'm going to continue to use, as this is the most comfortable period I've ever had. I'm not even saying that either, my cramps seem to had settled a lot quicker and my period (for what I can see) seemed a little lighter, but that could be down to the fact I didn't have to change or empty my cup that often as you can leave them in for longer unlike tampons. 

If you're thinking of giving them a go, there's plenty of range out there to suit all budgets. I'm going to have a look into getting a slightly larger cup as I feel like this is only suitable for me if I'm having a light day, I wouldn't be able to use it if I had a full blown period. Don't be put off if things go wrong the first time, it's all about learning to get it in right and putting your mind at ease. Although these are quite different and definitely have created a divided opinion, they surely are something to keep in mind if you want to explore different options whilst on your period. 

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Reflections and the future.

I'm back! And with a bit of a rambly post. 

Now I've been pretty much silent on SweetPea for the past month or so, as you've probably noticed. That's not because I've been too busy or anything like that, it's because I wanted a bit of time to rethink what this blog is about. 

When I started SweetPea over a year ago (wow?!), I said to myself that I'm not going to fall into the same category as what every other 20-something female blogger does, being a beauty blogger. Don't get me wrong, beauty is a HUGE part of my life but it's not what I want this blog to be about. I don't want someone to come onto my blog, read my posts and think wow, I've read a review on this product time and time again. I slowly but surely fell into the trap of doing this, and I just didn't want it to happen. I've taken a bit of time to think about what content I want on this blog, as it still remains the same as when I originally created this blog. I want it to be about anything, whether that be the new collar I buy my cat, a bunch of flowers I buy, anything. I know they wont be interesting, but it'll be my post to write, my post to publish and your post to read. I don't want to write a review on the Urban Decay Naked pallet, because every blog I read seems to have done one and to be honest, where's the fun in trying to create a blog if it's just going to be identical to the next blog? 

I've had a lot of time to think about myself, my future and also other things whilst I've been away, which means I've put myself into a new frame of mind. I've spent the last week or so in my favourite place (Tenby, Wales) and I have just really chilled out. I got myself into a horrible routine of getting up, going to work, coming home, having dinner, going to bed. Over the last month or so, I've really not spoken to my partner or even spent any quality time with him and in turn, our relationship has hit that ever so inevitable "comfortable" stage. Blah. I've also been in and out of hospital with my stomach - but I'll save that for another post. I've really started neglecting the things that mean the most to me. And that's not who I am. 

So, before I go on and on rambling about stuff that isn't irrelevant, I just wanted to post this because I want you all to know how important this blog is to me as it's my space to do whatever I want. I want to start posting different things and that starts today! 

For those of you who are reading this, thank you for sticking by me. 

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April favourites.

Where is this year going? I still feel like I'm in February - not May!! 

Here's some of the things I was enjoying throughout April. 

I finally bit the bullet and got myself a gel nail kit!

I've wanted one of these for SO long but never felt the need to actually get one...until now. I decided to get one because I never really splurge any money on myself. My partner paid half towards this so it wasn't a huge chunk out of my first wage from my new job (starting halfway through the month, not a full months wage!). I'm so impressed with how easy these are...I had gel nails a very long time ago when my sister had bought her own kit, I instantly fell in love with how they looked and lasted. It's taken me a year to get my own and I'm so happy I have done! 

During a visit to my local Superdrug, I noticed their range on dry shampoos had changed and managed to pick myself up a right little gem. 

What really drew me to this was the bright red packaging (although you can't see it on this picture from my Instagram!), I didn't even notice the name. Oh good lord this smells SO good. I've nearly used this can, but I do find the Superdrug dry shampoos work best on my hair. They don't leave it feeling...gritty? They also don't leave a powdery residue in my hair, like I find the Batiste range leaves. I bought this whilst it was on offer, either being 3 for 2 or 3 for £3.00..I can't remember! They're dead cheap and really effective. 

Talking a little more about shampoos, I recently changed my shampoo bar from Lush. 

I don't even need to say how much I love Lush...if you've read my previous posts, you'll already know! I picked this Copperhead shampoo bar up in February but I've only just gotten round to using it. I decided to switch from Godiva as I wanted something a little lighter feeling in my hair throughout the summer months. Now I'm going to be honest, this doesn't smell the greatest when sniffing it as a dry bar. However, this lathers up something beautiful when it is rubbed under water, the smell then turns into something I really..really like! I picked this up because I had previously used the Lush henna and loved how it left my hair feeling and the colour it left it - I can honestly say this shampoo bar has made my hair a little more orange and I actually like it! I'm even tempted to ditch the red hair and go back to my natural ginger locks. It's also leaving my hair feeling very soft and silky, not heavy which is what I was looking for. I remember buying this for around £4.00 when it was released, however I've noticed the price has increase to £5.75.

Netflix, every month you never fail to get me hooked on something, and this month it's Luther. 

This is something my Dad watched whilst I still lived with my parents, he was forever asking me to sit down and watch it because it was really good. Me being me, I instantly thought "...it's a Dad thing, I won't like it" but it eventually got the better of me and I'm not even kidding you, I have watched every series twice over. I love it! The story line is just...gah. I can't even describe it, seriously, go watch it. And Idris Elba? Mmm. 

Aaaand last but not least - I bought myself a new car! 

Okay okay, I said I never splurge money on myself. But..gah, I just couldn't help it. I'd been in the market for a new car for a couple of months as my old trusty K.A was slowly but surely eating all my money on petrol (despite me not going any further than I normally do!). I saw this car on the internet, fell in love, went to test drive it the same day and yeh. Need I say any more? I love my little Peggy! 

I'm still in shock that we're in May. Although, the weather seems to say otherwise...

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Life update.

I've really neglected this blog this month...it's been hectic. I've not really felt like writing anything as I didn't feel inspired and didn't want to write something half-hearted. That's not what this blog is for - I only want to post things I feel are worthwhile. 

At the beginning of this month, everything changed for my partner. His Grandad has been extremely poorly and has been in hospital for several weeks. My partner been going to the hospital straight after work meaning I've not really seen him all that much - only really when we cross paths going to work/coming home from work. This sounds like I'm having a moan about him - obviously I'm not at all because he needs to see his family but I've never seen him so distant. It's sad and I don't know what to do. 

I also received my results from hospital regarding my stomach problems. Now I know what's wrong with me - it's official - I suffer from Bile Acid Malabsorption. Sounds fancy doesn't it?...when I first heard this I was thinking "what the hell is it?" and truth be told, I still really don't know. My Doctors haven't really been informative even when asked which leaves me wondering, do they even know? I've been prescribed a medicine called Colestyramine but I'm yet to start it, I've not really had time or patience to read through the instructions. Once I've got my head around what this actually is, or how to best describe it, I'll more than likely write a post. 

Again, I apologise that my blog has taken yet another back seat. As I said, I didn't really want to blog anything that I felt wasn't...from the heart? or had a lot of effort put into it? 

I won't go in to too much detail in this post, I really just wanted to let you know that I am still here, I'm just waiting for a time where I feel I actually want to blog. I'm hoping to write my April favourites post later today when I come home from work. 

See you then! 
♥

March favourites.

FINALLY we seem to be getting in to spring! The nights are getting darker later, the weather is somewhat a little warmer and Easter is just around the corner.

I love this time of year. 

March was a funny old month for me, I started a new job at the beginning and haven't had much time to myself and I've really struggled health wise...but here are a handful of my favourite things!

Let's start off with the h&m plastic hair bobbles. 

I haven't used these an awful lot as I only got them last week but these are already a firm favourite of mine. They're a similar sort of concept to the Invisibobble, but I believe these are a little thicker than them. I didn't really know what to expect from these as I've got really thick hair but my sister actually gave me one of these to try out. I've recently been suffering with quite bad headaches and I've not really been able to wear my hair up as it tends to make them worse. However, since wearing these, I've been able to wear my hair up, headache free. I actually want to grab a couple more packs when I go in to town this weekend! 

The next favourite of March was something I've always wanted to try, and that's ice tea.

Ohhh boy haven't I just fallen in love with this stuff. I actually tried the Lidl peach iced tea first, and absolutely loved it. I only tried Lipton recently and I don't know which one I prefer! I love how refreshing it is to drink this stuff...I've been dubious for years about iced tea, it just didn't seem normal but actually...I think I might just prefer it to "normal" tea! I'm actually going to pop back in to Lidl tomorrow to get a case of this stuff - the 1L bottles are only around 98p! 

Can someone tell me who doesn't love getting snuggled up in a dressing gown? 

This is quite possibly the most comfy thing I have ever put on my body. I bought this from Primark for £10 a couple of weeks ago and I've worn it every day since...it's actually well overdue being thrown in the washing machine! I actually wanted one from New Look which was slightly more expensive but I think this one feels so much nicer. And it has ears on the hood, how adorable! 

My next two favourites come of no suprise...they're from Makeup Revolution. 

Firstly these little things have a firm place in my makeup stash until they're no longer manufactured.

I really love the nude colour in this collection (second from top) as it's a nice alternative to the MUA lip laquers, for the days I want something a little more moisturising. These have SUCH great pigmentation, they're long lasting and to be honest they really don't break the bank. I just love MUR, their products are spot on all the time and to be honest, I love the fact I've found a brand I keep coming back to time and time again. I'm pretty sure these were only around £3.00 each too. 

And last but not least, the final favourite of March was this...

I went to London! This might not seem like such a huge thing for everyone else but for me, this overcame so many obstacles that I thought were standing in my way. If you know me personally, you'll know I'm not terribly outgoing, I'm quite a nervous person and to be honest, I never thought I'd see the day I got on a train and went to London, by myself. I booked these tickets the last weekend my sister was down and ever since I had a horrible feeling in my stomach, a feeling of worry. I didn't know how I'd cope being by myself, going on a train by myself and to be honest, I didn't know if I'd trigger my IBS by making myself like this. I have never been so proud of myself...I sound ridiculous but I really am proud! I loved this weekend just gone, I've not felt this happy in such a long time. It was lovely to go and see my sister rather than her coming back to Worcester to see our family. I definitely plan on doing this more often, I really enjoyed myself and I've been in a good mood ever since I came back, I'm already planning my next trip! I'm also really happy to say I'm the first person in my family to go and see my sister since she moved to London, because I know it meant as much to her as it did to me. 

I had to put that in my favourites as at the start of the year, this was one of the things I promised myself that I'd do. (Link) I just cannot believe it took me this long to overcome my fear of travelling alone. 

I'm welcoming spring with open arms, I'm looking forward to the next couple of months as my family get back into the habit of get-togethers, I definitely plan on doing more exploring of London and I cannot WAIT to get this blog in to full swing!

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Health update.

If you've been following my blog for the past couple of months, you'll know what this will be about. But if you don't know what its about, this is my previous post explaining everything. 

I finally got my appointment come through for my hospital referral, which was last Thursday (19th). My dad ended up coming with me as support due to my other half starting a new job and he could no longer make it. 

I got to the hospital and sat down in the waiting room which was absolutely packed full of people...and before I knew it, I was being called in. Dirty looks were thrown at me from all sides of the room as I presume they'd been waiting there for a while but hey, who cares. I had my weight and height measured by a pre assessment nurse and off I went back into the same waiting room. A couple of minutes later, I was called in again to see the consultant. 

Now, I used to be quite shy and embarrassed when talking about my stomach issues but the more I've come to terms with it, the easier I've found actually talking about it. I was in the consultants room for around 30 minutes talking about how this all started, how it effects me and also I had to rate what my poo looks like on a picture scale...on an iphone app. Wow. After a good conversation about my diet, general health and past health, the consultant agreed that I would need a endoscopy to see what was going on. At this point I'm blissfully ignorant as to what this actually was...

From there, I was sent to see a pre-examination nurse who sat me in a little room to go through a health questionnaire about my health, am I pregnant, have I been smoking or drinking, the usual questions which I always get the same looks when I respond. I genuinely do not smoke, and I very very rarely drink...not something that the doctors seem to believe! After the questionnaire, I was told I couldn't eat anything from 9am on Sunday morning until after my appointment on Monday...over 24 hours. And Sunday morning, I could only eat certain low fibre foods...whaaaat! Also for this procedure I had to be administered laxatives. In my mind I'm thinking wait, hold on...this is the reason why I'm here, I don't need laxatives! But this is needed so my bowel and intestines are completely clear for inspection. I was given a huge box with two sachets that I had to mix together in 1 litre of water (2ltrs in total...!)  and drink one at 5pm over two hours and the next at 8pm, again over two hours. In between those and after, I was to drink 500ml each time. Now I take absolutely AGES to drink anything, this was certainly going to be a challenge in itself! Next we were talking about pain relief and at this point I'm thinking wow, how bad is this?! I opted for Entinox (gas and air) as if it's good enough for childbirth surely it'll be good enough for this. I left the hospital with a little "goodie bag" of laxatives, information leaflets and also my consent letter for pain relief.

Fast forward to Sunday morning, I got up early to have breakfast which consisted of crumpets...one of the very few things I was allowed to eat. All of Sunday I kept myself busy to stop thinking about food, eating, smells, anything. However this backfired as I stupidly went food shopping with my boyfriend...! Before I knew it, 5pm arrived and it was time for my first sachet of laxatives. Sachets mixed together, the smell of sickly sherbet lemon oozed from the jug of water. I knew instantly I was going to hate this...I hate anything sickly and anything artificially lemon tasting. I literally gagged drinking this, however found it a little easier to drink with a touch of orange squash poured in to it. I somehow managed to drink the first litre and on came the 500ml of clean water. At this stage I'm feeling SO bloated...how the hell am I going to cope with another 1.5ltrs of water?! I decided to take a bath to give myself a bit of a break and then came the second litre. Now I'm going to be truthful here, I could not stomach any more lemony water. I drank hardly any of the second batch of laxatives. Now, reading through the leaflet, I was meant to have "movement" within an hour of the first sip you take. 5 hours later I still had nothing...a bit of gurgling but nothing coming out. Weird. 

I didn't have any sort of movement till this morning, and when I mean movement I mean, get me to a toilet NOW. Safe to say, I'll never take laxatives again. Ever. I only went to the toilet once but the pain was unbearable!

9:45am arrived and my hospital appointment loomed. I was sat in the waiting room with another older lady and a lovely old gentleman who was reading a book. I was called through by a lovely nurse and taken through to my bed and was then introduced to the doctor who would be taking out the procedure. I had my blood pressure and pulse taken and as usual, these were completely normal. There was a lady around the same age as me who had not long come out of the procedure and was crying, and I mean crying. I said to the nurse, jesus it's not that bad is it?! but she reassured me that she was in for something different. Secretly, I knew she wasnt. Around 30 minutes later, I was wheeled into the endoscopy room and was overwhelmed with the size of the machine. I saw the camera and thought...that has to go...up there? it's huge! As funny as it is, I really was nervous. 

As I mentioned before, I opted for gas and air but due to having IBS, I was administered Buscopan through a needle in my arm, but was also there just in case I needed to be sedated directly into my blood. The lovely nurse who I'd just been talking to was showing me how to use the gas and air...WOW. After 4 puffs I felt like I was flying, my head was spinning and it's quite the most light headed I've ever felt! If I ever have children I will definitely be using that. Camera...inserted.., I could see everything that was happening on a screen I was lay directly in front of. Next to this was a tiny screen showing what the "scope" looked like inside my body. Very, very off-putting. I kept my eyes on the screen where I could see inside my body and completely forgot about the gas and air. To be honest, it wasn't painful at all, it just felt like really bad trapped wind and like I needed to go to the toilet. I could feel this camera going round my bowel and intestines and it genuinely is the weirdest feeling I've ever felt. It was like a fingertip running itself around my insides. There was one part which was a little bit more uncomfortable where the doctor was trying to get into a smaller part of my colon, it literally felt like it was breaking through but I took another puff of the gas and air to help which soon made the pain disappear. However, at this point I became extremely hot and felt like I was going to be sick, but I let out one almighty burp and was fine again. 

The majority of my examination looked absolutely fine however there was one part that was slightly bloody...I don't know if this was from him trying to dig his way to China through my bowel or from the laxatives but it was nothing to be worried about. The next part was to take biopsies of different parts of my colon and bowel but it was the weirdest thing to watch. It was like a mini crocodile clip nipping away at my skin! Again, nothing too painful, just a slight tugging sensation. And at that, the examination was over. 30 minutes later and all my crevices explored, I was done.

I was wheeled back into the recovery ward where I was told as I'd only had the tiniest bit of gas and air, I'd be able to go home in about half an hour. However, I was also told I was to expect a lot of wind movement...and they weren't joking! My stomach was gurgling something chronic but I did not want to pass it as I was in a room full of people...who have just had the same thing done. It's just me, I have manners, haha! The nurse came back to check my blood pressure and pulse again but at this point my blood pressure had dropped...not sure why but after a cup of tea and FINALLY something to eat, it crept back up to a normal rate. She went through my results and informed me that my biopsies will take about a week to come back to me but I have nothing as of yet to be worried about. 

So here I am, an hour and a half after coming back from hospital having a camera literally poking around my insides and I feel absolutely fine. A bit crampy and windy but nothing that I haven't experienced before. I was told that this should pass in a couple of hours so that's fine. I don't know how to feel whilst waiting for these results...I am worried, of course I am, but I just don't know what to expect. I'm sure I'll share the outcome of it all on here, but for now I'm going to try everything I can to not think about it.

All in all, my experience having an endoscopy wasn't THAT bad but certainly something I wouldn't do again in a hurry! For now, I've got my new job to focus on which I'm REALLY enjoying and I'm also going to London this weekend to see my sister. 

Until next time!

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